{"product_id":"broken-mothers-of-broken-daughters-alex-jones-9798201549442","title":"Broken Mothers of Broken Daughters Made By Broken Fathers","description":"\u003cp\u003eIn this segment of my journey, I address mothers of broken daughters and hope that you might understand the thoughts, the pain, the guilt, the shame and the regrets I went through, even though it was lost then, and will always be lost to my own mother.\u003cbr\u003eBeing here means that you are nothing like my mother was. For that, I salute you. Perhaps, a little insight into what I desperately needed from my own mother might be the guide you need, in an Afterwards of your own, and one that is untaught to you, and you're your broken daughter.\u003cbr\u003eThere is a mountain ahead of both of you, but it is one I have no doubt you would climb a hundred times over to release you of your unfounded guilt, your child's intense desire to be exonerated from any wrongdoing and allow you the insight into putting your family back together. \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eThe last chapter deals with the death of my monster and the truth about my broken mother. xx \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eI thought I'd never forgive him or mourn his death. I thought I would then be free. I thought that ignoring his calls, his messages, and his desperate attempts to apologize to me would preserve my glued-back-together-brokenness. I thought I wouldn't shed a single tear and that finally, my life would be unbroken.\u003cbr\u003eI thought that I would never look back on what could have been with my mother. I thought that she could never be to me what I am to my daughter. I thought she'd never change and that she'd hate me forever. I thought I'd never miss her. Or him.\u003cbr\u003eI thought I would never reflect on the moments that were good in my childhood. There weren't many and the bad was just too bad, overshadowing any good that there was.\u003cbr\u003eAll I thought I knew about my own brokenness was a lie.\u003cbr\u003eI did not fully understand or realize how terribly broken she was, and how my father shattered her life. With no family, mother or father to ask for help, she was trapped in a life she was desperate to escape. My father broke her, and then he went on with his life.\u003cbr\u003eWe were all products of a darkness in this world. We were all caught up in an evil we couldn't escape. Not my father. Not my mother. Not us.\u003cbr\u003eI understand that today, and most things make sense. I still have moments of anger towards my father, but it's different now. They are moments of anger infused with an overwhelming sadness that causes me to shout out to him about all our what-if's and what-should-have-been's. Some days, I berate him loudly for his stupid mistakes, and other days, I wonder what broke him?\u003cbr\u003eThe thing is, I don't know much about my father's younger years or childhood. I don't know about a traumatic event he might have suffered, or if perhaps history was repeating itself. I don't know? I never asked. I never wanted to know because, at the time, it would never have justified what he did to us. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eSo today, I want to ask mothers and daughters to talk about this. Talk about your brokenness and don't wait three decades to get it right. Understand one another and pick up your broken pieces together. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eBroken Mother, tell her about your own shattered heart.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAuthor:\u003c\/b\u003e Alex Jones\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN-10:\u003c\/b\u003e 8201549449\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN-13:\u003c\/b\u003e 9798201549442\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Alex Jones\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eLanguage:\u003c\/b\u003e English\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 09\/21\/2021\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 174\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eFormat:\u003c\/b\u003e Paperback\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 0.50lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 8.50h x 5.50w x 0.40d","brand":"Alex Jones","offers":[{"title":"Paperback","offer_id":44616805089535,"sku":"9798201549442","price":11.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0662\/2982\/9887\/files\/img_a2f68dd6-ce61-47c7-b2a6-103efe36d7cd.jpg?v=1703022418","url":"https:\/\/www.whiterainbookhouse.com\/products\/broken-mothers-of-broken-daughters-alex-jones-9798201549442","provider":"WR Book House","version":"1.0","type":"link"}