{"product_id":"finding-jesus-derek-ashford-9798257216213","title":"Finding Jesus: Ben Fuller's Extraordinary Story of Faith, Redemption and Grace","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eSome people fall from grace.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eBen Fuller never had it to begin with.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBen Fuller had the voice. He had the drive. He had the kind of grit that only comes from growing up on a Vermont dairy farm before the sun rises, throwing hay bales in the dark, learning early that the world rewards those who show up.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eHe showed up. Every single time.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAnd it still was not enough.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBecause the one thing Ben Fuller needed most was not something any amount of showing up could earn. It lived in a silence he carried from boyhood - a silence so familiar he had stopped noticing it was destroying him.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBy the time he reached Nashville, he had already lost more than most people know. He had already stood at an edge that most people never come back from. He had already buried his best friend - a man who, it turned out, had been praying for Ben every single day without Ben knowing it.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003ePrayers that appeared to go nowhere.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003ePrayers that were going exactly where they needed to go.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eFINDING JESUS: Ben Fuller's Extraordinary Story of Faith, Redemption and Grace\u003c\/b\u003e is not the story of a man who cleaned himself up and found God as a reward for good behaviour. It is the story of a man who was found - in the middle of the mess, in the middle of the running, in the middle of a Nashville night that looked like every other Nashville night until it suddenly, irrevocably, was not.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThis is a book about what grace actually looks like when it arrives in real life. Not the greeting card version. The version that shows up at a dinner table. That waits through fourteen years of saying no. That answers a prayer spoken by a dead man.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eThis book will ask you questions you may not be ready to answer.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eWhat are you using to fill the silence? How long have you been running? Who is praying for you right now that you do not know about?\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAnd the question underneath all the other questions - the one Ben Fuller spent thirty years trying to outrun: \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003ci\u003eDoes anyone actually love me?\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIf you have ever asked that question in the dark - this book was written for you.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIf you love someone who is asking it right now - this book was written for them.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIf you work in addiction recovery, prison ministry, pastoral care or crisis counselling - this book belongs in your hands and on your resource shelf.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eInside these pages you will find: \u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cul\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eThe unvarnished truth of what addiction actually looks like from the inside - not the dramatic collapse, but the long, invisible, functional deterioration that fools everyone including the person living it\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eThe story of a friendship that kept praying when prayer seemed pointless - and what those prayers eventually produced\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eThe single evening that redirected the entire trajectory of a life\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eWhat redemption costs and what it gives back\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eWhy the men behind prison gates respond to Ben Fuller's story in ways that violence and punishment never managed to produce\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003c\/ul\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAuthor:\u003c\/b\u003e Derek Ashford\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN-13:\u003c\/b\u003e 9798257216213\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Independently Published\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eLanguage:\u003c\/b\u003e English\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 04\/13\/2026\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 96\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eFormat:\u003c\/b\u003e Paperback\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 0.31lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 9.00h x 6.00w x 0.23d","brand":"Derek Ashford","offers":[{"title":"Paperback","offer_id":48517222007039,"sku":"9798257216213","price":16.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0662\/2982\/9887\/files\/img_5f84ce58-f1fc-4618-a3ff-4a474823f07b.jpg?v=1778730735","url":"https:\/\/www.whiterainbookhouse.com\/products\/finding-jesus-derek-ashford-9798257216213","provider":"WR Book House","version":"1.0","type":"link"}