{"product_id":"god-called-you-dawn-gullion-9781796034592","title":"God Called You","description":"After the sudden death of my father, at 9 years old, I found myself talking to strangers that wanted to help me stop feeling sad. I had never been around anyone who could explain coping. Through extensive therapy, I was immediately intrigued by how the mind worked. I was fascinated in trying to understand how I could manipulate my own negative thoughts and feelings. Learning how to make myself feel ok, safe. Finding out how resilient I was, opened up a whole new world for me. That didn't have to be filled with anger or abuse. I gained control over myself and my thoughts. Which lead me to dive into any aspect of psychology I could. I wanted to absorb as much information I could to make myself a better sister, daughter, friend and eventually a mother. One month after turning 17 I gave birth to a beautiful healthy baby girl, Macie Dawn, the only thing I had done right thus far. Suddenly I had someone who couldn't leave, who would love me no matter what. For the first time in my life I felt a whole different level of important. I was going to make sure she never felt the pain, sadness, emptiness and abandonment I felt. A life depended on me. Her father, Steven, treated me with kindness. I was 18, just had a baby my last year of high school, living with my fiancé who is 6 years my senior, working in a nursing home. It was us 3 against the world. Steven made sure that her and I were protected, loved and well taken care of. Although he and I had a toxic relationship. This was our world, I was going to make our family worked. However, I soon realized I couldn't fix Steven, I couldn't control his inner demons, from war, from his father's rejection, from drugs, alcohol. After an unsuccessful 90 day stay in a treatment facility, Steven was losing his battle with his demons. Then one year to the day after giving birth to our beautiful baby, Steven took his own life.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAuthor:\u003c\/b\u003e Dawn Gullion\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN-10:\u003c\/b\u003e 1796034592\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN-13:\u003c\/b\u003e 9781796034592\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Xlibris Us\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eLanguage:\u003c\/b\u003e English\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 05\/20\/2019\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 26\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eFormat:\u003c\/b\u003e Paperback\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 0.19lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 8.50h x 8.50w x 0.07d","brand":"Dawn Gullion","offers":[{"title":"Paperback","offer_id":47427627090175,"sku":"9781796034592","price":21.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0662\/2982\/9887\/files\/img_bc448c14-d4c2-415b-b633-9fa7adab95fd.jpg?v=1761580568","url":"https:\/\/www.whiterainbookhouse.com\/products\/god-called-you-dawn-gullion-9781796034592","provider":"WR Book House","version":"1.0","type":"link"}