{"product_id":"still-here-misty-dawn-9798198234802","title":"Still Here: Letters on Suicide Loss, Trauma, and Choosing to Stay","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003e\"How are you still alive?\"\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eA therapist asked Misty Dawn that question two years after her father took his own life.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAt the time, she was on seven psychiatric medications pushed to the highest doses possible - and still not okay.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eShe laughed.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eShe said it wasn't for lack of trying.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe therapist told her to write a book.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eShe didn't.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eNot for twenty years.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003ci\u003eStill Here\u003c\/i\u003e is the book she finally wrote: thirteen letters written over twelve days, counting down to the anniversary of the day her father chose to leave.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eRaw, intimate, and emotionally unflinching, this memoir speaks openly about the things grief stories often avoid: \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cul\u003e\n\u003cli\u003echildhood abuse\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eassault\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003edissociation\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003esurvival\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003esilence\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003etoxic relationships\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eand the exhausting reality of trying to stay alive while appearing functional\u003c\/li\u003e\n\u003c\/ul\u003e\u003cp\u003eBut beneath every page sits the same question she has carried since she was twenty-four years old: \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eHow am I still here?\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThis is her honest answer.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eNot a polished redemption story.\u003cbr\u003eNot a clean healing timeline.\u003cbr\u003eJust a woman finally speaking after decades of silence.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eFor readers of Joan Didion's \u003ci\u003eThe Year of Magical Thinking\u003c\/i\u003e, Carmen Maria Machado's \u003ci\u003eIn the Dream House\u003c\/i\u003e, and Stephanie Foo's \u003ci\u003eWhat My Bones Know\u003c\/i\u003e.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eFor survivors.\u003cbr\u003eFor the people who never had words for what happened to them.\u003cbr\u003eFor anyone who has ever wondered if they were \"too damaged\" to still become whole.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eYou are not alone.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAuthor:\u003c\/b\u003e Misty Dawn\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN-13:\u003c\/b\u003e 9798198234802\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Independently Published\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eLanguage:\u003c\/b\u003e English\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 05\/22\/2026\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 116\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eFormat:\u003c\/b\u003e Paperback\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 0.36lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 9.00h x 6.00w x 0.28d","brand":"Misty Dawn","offers":[{"title":"Paperback","offer_id":49001904275711,"sku":"9798198234802","price":14.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"url":"https:\/\/www.whiterainbookhouse.com\/products\/still-here-misty-dawn-9798198234802","provider":"WR Book House","version":"1.0","type":"link"}