{"product_id":"twisted-up-in-him-cassie-fairbanks-9798248961986","title":"Twisted Up in Him","description":"\u003cb\u003eLilah\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eI'd been hurt enough times to know better than to believe in love.\u003cbr\u003eSweet I love you's always rotted into something sour, something spiteful-until I was discarded like I'd never mattered at all. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eI kept my world dark on purpose. The only shining light in it was my daughter, my reason for breathing, my reason for surviving. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003ci\u003eEverything else? I kept at arm's length.\u003c\/i\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eThen he waltzed into my home and twisted me up. He took up space in my life and fixed things he didn't break-things I never wanted him to touch. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eWith every repair, I saw the truth more clearly. I wasn't just guarded. I was damaged. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eAnd the cruelest part? \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003ci\u003eI was the one thing that Xander couldn't fix.\u003c\/i\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cb\u003eXander\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eI learned control the hard way-it was beaten out of me, stripped from me, and used against me when I was captured in the war. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003ci\u003eI took it back and claimed it as my own.\u003c\/i\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eI came home to freedom, but found I'd lost everything that mattered. My wife-consumed by grief-had taken her own life. The guilt of her pain and the nightmares of my time in captivity never loosened their grip. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eI drank to numb the pain. And learned to survive sobriety one brutal day at a time. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003ci\u003eThen I met her.\u003c\/i\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eLilah didn't fear my darkness-she recognized it and embraced it. And for the first time since I lost my wife, since I lost myself, I felt alive again. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eAfter everything I endured, I didn't want something gentle-I just needed someone to stand in the wreckage and not run away.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAuthor:\u003c\/b\u003e Cassie Fairbanks\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN-13:\u003c\/b\u003e 9798248961986\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Independently Published\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eLanguage:\u003c\/b\u003e English\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 02\/19\/2026\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 270\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eFormat:\u003c\/b\u003e Paperback\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 0.62lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 8.00h x 5.25w x 0.57d","brand":"Cassie Fairbanks","offers":[{"title":"Paperback","offer_id":49001177055487,"sku":"9798248961986","price":17.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"url":"https:\/\/www.whiterainbookhouse.com\/products\/twisted-up-in-him-cassie-fairbanks-9798248961986","provider":"WR Book House","version":"1.0","type":"link"}