1340: Considerations from life's ledge (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9781441489944)

When I was a teenager, I tried my hand at modeling. It was a lot of fun. I even got to be one of the Winston Cup girls at the Pocono Raceway. But it wasn't earth-shattering. Plus I'm missing several inches! I actually thought I was going to be an actress - someone on the stage or movies. After high school, I attended the Theatre of Arts in L.A. and appeared in the Disney movie, My Secret Bodyguard. However, I discovered I would rather write about the damnation of the universe more than anything else. I've enjoyed writing for as long as I can remember. Poetry is my release of emotions. I like the challenge of rhyming words and making the poem sing. I write free verse as well. I feel better after writing poetry even if it's an angry poem. The poem is an extension of me like an extra appendage. I love creating characters. I daydream all the time about various situations and stories. I always have music playing. Music is the background for my inspiration. I use intriguing people as dolls acting in a play. I mix them together sometimes to see what comes out of it. I love pretending to be other people just to see what it's like. I can accomplish that by writing about it. I am not an oral person. I don't talk a lot so writing is my avenue for communicating with the rest of the world. I never stop thinking; there's always words rolling around in my head. I like researching. I like showing people what I think although sometimes I'm embarrassed by what I write. I get nervous no one will like it or think it is strange or useless. Enter KARA Ambrose. My nom de plume. KARA equals Kindness Acts Random Always. Ambrose was my grandfather's musical stage name. I decided to take on a persona for my creative writing simply because I can be more manipulative in my art. Being someone other than Connie allows me the separation of any emotion that might stop me from going to dark unknown places. That's where my Punk personality fits in. I never feel like I belong. A part of me is dark and mysterious. Most people do not expect this side of me. Everyone sees a perky, sweet cheerleader. I actually like this identity because I feel stronger, more powerful by being this way. It's where I draw my energy from. I can get down and dirty with the best of them. I'm rebellious in my thoughts not always my actions. I don't circumscribe to anyone's influences. My poems are from this side of me. It's my way of sticking it to the world.