Arguments with God: The Journey of a Sleeping Soul (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9781420849035)

I grew up in New Orleans and lived with a very successful grandmother. Her name was Rosemary Boudoin-Sanders and we called her "Mother". We lived in a beautiful yet mysterious home and were the typical 'Crescent City' Christian family, meaning that quite a few members embraced 'dark practices' under the guise of simply 'protecting themselves.' New Orleans is one of those rare places where the two things can get mixed up together and most people don't see a conflict.

This was the road I started on. It certainly was not where I ended up; yet, it had the greatest impact on my spiraling downhill. Mother running from fires, before jumping out a window and burning on a church lawn, Sam getting shot five times in the back, and my inability to cope with life or death is when I lost my sight. I tried to focus on other things, any other thing but God. After all, He could have prevented it all from happening. We had been so close. I just wanted to find happiness somewhere. The only soothing of my pain seemed to come from taking care of myself, on focusing on getting the money.

I was blind for a long time and became one of those prosperity teachers who preached on success and wealth; after all, I certainly had the credentials; I'd spent most of my life focusing on acquisitions. I was always in the race to succeed, to accomplish my goal. I had no idea what road I was on or where I'd end up. All I knew was that I was in the fast lane, going after the prize.

God opened my eyes just as I was about to fall off the cliff; I saw that I had taken the wrong turn. He caught me just in time to see myself and recognize what was happening. I learned that my purpose for living has nothing to do with wealth, that success has nothing to do with money. God taught me that life is about obtaining eternity, of preparing for the journey, of thinking and really focusing on life's purpose. It is about making the right turn and landing in the arms of God.