Ascension: A Poetic Chronicle in Progress Vol. 1 (Hardcover) (ISBN-13: 9781546224716)

Here I am, yes A Man Of God who literally and disobediently turned his back on Jehovah. Yes due to the pain of rejection I gave up on enjoying Gods Gift to me (life) and instead put my focus on pleasing other people and I lost sight of what is pleasing in the Eyes Of Jehovah. That is to stay focused on my daily needs, my desires and objectives and then and only then should I try to please others on ahuman level. So due to an inherent short-sightedness and ignorance, relative to life and humanity in general and because I was hurt more severely than most due to my physiological condition, this pain affected me harder exponentially. I did not understand how to stop a pain of excruciating proportions and I had no available means of relief and since the ones Ireally loved and trusted hurt me the most, I withdrew from the real world. They did not or could not understand my situation or needs. They instead pursued the feeling, attentions and social affiliations which gave then the most pleasure and gratification on ahuman level. I now realize that that was a normal human trait.