Being A Veteran Can Really Suck A Memoir Of Life After The Military (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9798355345068)

The feeling of not having money immediately and being able to provide for my family the way I wanted to, hurt. I have been feeling less than a man. Someone simply living in a shell. My emotions have been all over the place and I began to eat my feelings away. I got up to my highest recorded weight, 294 pounds. This is by far the heaviest I have ever been in my life, and I have the stretch marks to prove it. I looked beyond filthy and horrible. I was a walking insult to myself and my family. I was so heavy that family members couldn't do anything but mention my weight gain when they saw me. This angered me so much and I couldn't do anything about it because I knew they were right. I was simply in a bad place not only on the outside but on the inside. What made it even worse was that not one of the family members that mentioned my weight gain ever asked how I was doing. Well, I'll tell you, I was trying to figure out how the hell I was I going to make it, how to tell my wife that I was embarrassed to take my shirt off in front of her, how to tell my mother that her oldest son had failed, and how to tell my family I had no plan. I wish I would have known that life would be like this getting out of the military.