Faded Red Beads: From an Orphanage to a Disrupted Adoption. A Story of Courage, Resiliency and Faith. (Hardcover) (ISBN-13: 9780228849445)

So she chose. The word "choose" is a verb, an action word. It means "to pick out or select (someone or something) as best or most appropriate of two or more alternatives."

Choose between that yellow or red dress, flats or heels, skirt or pants, coffin nails or square, contentment or disappointment. Choose between the life you know and the one you don't. Choose between comfort or vulnerability, going to Christmas dinner with your family or staying in bed, telling your boss how you really feel about their decisions or remaining quiet.

Have you ever made what you thought was the wrong choice and felt the impact for days? Months? Years? A lifetime? Have you ever not decided, and by default the decision was made for you?

She chose once before, but this time her choice was different. She chose to have me, but not keep me.

This story is written to inspire individuals. To move when you don't have all the answers about what lies ahead, but if you stay where you are, you will die. To trust your gut and to not copy anyone's life-you are an original. It just so happens this story is about a little girl's journey from an orphanage to a failed adoption to charting her path forward. Whether you experienced foster care or adoption or neither, this story will encourage you to keep believing that good will find you.