Father, Silent: How the Love You Tried to Earn Shaped Your Faith (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9798243040860)

He spent a lifetime trying to earn his father's approval. Now, he faces a terrifying realization: he has been trying to earn God's love the same way.

To his students, Dr. Daniel Mercer is a pillar of faith. As a respected theology professor, he has spent twenty years teaching the doctrine of grace. But in the quiet of his own soul, Daniel feels nothing but the pressure to perform.

When his father passes away, Daniel stands at the graveside dry-eyed and numb, unable to grieve a man he never truly knew. Returning to his childhood home to settle the estate, he uncovers a hidden journal and a stack of war letters that reveal a side of his father he never saw-a man broken by trauma and silenced by his own unhealed wounds.

As Daniel reads, the walls he has built around his own heart begin to crumble. He is forced to confront a devastating truth: he has projected the image of his silent, distant earthly father onto God. He has built a life on the exhausting belief that love is a wage to be earned, not a gift to be received.

Caught between a theology he teaches and a reality he lives, Daniel must navigate a profound spiritual crisis.

Can he learn the "language of intimacy" that was never spoken in his childhood home? Can he break the cycle of emotional distance before it destroys his relationship with his own children? And is it possible to finally stop performing and simply be a son?

Father, Silent is a poignant, deeply moving novel about the "father wound," the silence of God, and the difficult journey from a faith of striving to a faith of resting.

Perfect for readers who:

• Are navigating the deconstruction and reconstruction of faith
• Have struggled with "father wounds" or family trauma
• Enjoy the literary and spiritual depth of authors like Wm. Paul Young or C.S. Lewis (fiction)
• Are tired of easy answers and crave an honest look at suffering and grace

Stop performing. Stop earning. Start receiving. Discover the freedom of being a beloved son in Father, Silent.

Author: Maria Kos
ISBN-13: 9798243040860
Publisher: Independently Published
Language: English
Published: 01/07/2026
Pages: 180
Format: Paperback
Weight: 0.40lbs
Size: 8.00h x 5.00w x 0.41d