First Call to The Old Gods: A Memoir of Faith, Identity, and Finding My Way Home (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9798869240903)

What happens when the path back to Spirit is also the path back to yourself?

In First Call to the Old Gods, Ryan Kippes shares a deeply personal memoir of faith, identity, religious harm, queer resilience, spiritual awakening, and the long journey of coming home. From a first mystical experience as a teenager exploring Wicca, to years spent in Pentecostal ministry, to the painful unraveling of belonging after coming out as gay, this book traces the complicated terrain between devotion, rejection, healing, and reclamation.

This is not a book about escaping the world through spirituality. It is about building a life where your spirit can breathe.

Blending memoir, reflection, and practical spiritual teaching, Ryan explores what it means to trust your inner authority, create sacred space, strengthen boundaries, repair after rupture, and build community without control. With honesty and care, he names the ways spirituality can be weaponized-and offers a different path rooted in consent, discernment, embodiment, and love.

Written especially for readers who have felt spiritually sensitive, queer, wounded by religion, or called by something they could not fully explain, First Call to the Old Gods invites you to reclaim the sacred without surrendering your dignity.

Inside, you'll find personal stories, spiritual reflections, and grounded practices for creating sacred space, listening inward, working with energy, honoring boundaries, and reconnecting with Spirit in a way that supports wholeness rather than fear.

This is a memoir of losing the thread and finding it again.

Not as a follower.

As an equal.

As someone finally ready to answer the call.

Featuring a foreword by Xwayama Qalamut, Elder, Mentor, and Teacher, this book invites readers to approach spiritual growth with an open heart, discernment, and respect for their own path.