"Hey Dick" (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9781966407058)

"I thought it was my fault. I thought I wished him dead."

At 28 years old, Robbie Blackburn lost his big brother in a tragic accident-and was convinced a single careless thought made it happen. Hey Dick is Robbie's poignant journey through the maze of grief and guilt that follows the sudden death of his brother and best friend. In raw, poetic prose, he lays bare the survivor's guilt that haunted him: the secret belief that he somehow caused his brother's death, the "what-ifs" and nightmares that kept him trapped in heartbreak. How does a younger brother move forward when burdened with loss and the weight of impossible blame?

Robbie finds no roadmap for this shattered world of grief. He stumbles through detours of despair and dark corners of depression, numbing himself in one moment and raging the next. Yet amid the darkness, Hey Dick shines with fierce love and hope. Robbie tenderly recounts late-night video game battles, road trips, and the deep intellectual conversations only two brothers could share. He clings to those memories-each debate, each moment of unspoken understanding-determined to keep his brother's spirit alive in every story he tells. Writing becomes an act of remembrance and healing: some stories do live forever, and Robbie is driven to ensure his brother's does.

As years pass, Robbie confronts the truth that grief never truly leaves us-it changes shape, becoming an eternal burdenwe learn to carry. Through candid reflection and lyrical storytelling, he pieces himself back together. He learns to forgive himself for being the one left living. He discovers small mercies: a supportive friend who shows up on the worst day, a family that grows closer in the face of heartbreak, and the realization that his brother's love surrounds him still, like an invisible lifeline connecting them across the divide.

"Hey Dick" is a heart-wrenching yet ultimately healing memoir about navigating life after unimaginable loss. It captures the messy, unspoken truths of sibling grief-the guilt, the anger, the unbreakable bond-with unflinching honesty and tender humanity. Robbie's journey speaks to anyone who has felt alone in grief or haunted by guilt over a loved one's death. In the end, his story is a testament to the enduring power of brotherhood and the light that memory and love can spark in the darkest of times.

For readers seeking solace after loss, or anyone moved by stories of family, resilience, and love that never dies, Hey Dick offers comfort, understanding, and the courage to carry on.