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"I Married a Judas: Healing from Holy Betrayal - A Journey Through Grief, Deception, and Divine Recovery"
By Apostle Coleen S. Ray
Have you ever been betrayed by the very one who claimed to be sent by God?
Have you lost a child, your calling questioned, or your voice silenced by spiritual manipulation?
Are you a woman leader trying to rebuild while bleeding?
This book is for YOU.
In this raw, anointed, and prophetic memoir, Apostle Coleen S. Ray shares her heart-wrenching yet powerful journey through holy betrayal, spiritual abuse, and the devastating loss of her son, Joshua. From a 23-year marriage to walking into what seemed like a divinely orchestrated union that quickly unraveled into emotional torment, witchcraft, and narcissistic manipulation-Apostle Ray pulls back the veil on what happens when Judas is in the pulpit... and in your bed.
But this isn't just a survival story-it's a testimony of divine recovery.
Through grief, loss, prophetic insight, and supernatural encounters, she recounts how God used prayer, intercession, and The Watchmen's Call to anchor her. From death to destiny, from despair to the birth of The Ruach Center, she shows how God used brokenness to birth purpose-and how you can rise, oily and mantled, from the ashes.
What You'll Find Inside:17 gripping chapters of transparent storytelling, deliverance, and prophetic warning
How to recognize spiritual narcissism, counterfeit covenant, and church abuse
Healing affirmations, reflective prayers, and prophetic insights
A path toward rebuilding ministry, identity, and even the hope for true love again
Women in ministry who've been silenced or shamed
Survivors of spiritual and emotional abuse
Grieving mothers looking for hope
Apostolic and prophetic voices navigating betrayal
Anyone ready to heal without hiding
You can survive betrayal. You can rise from grief. And yes-you can love again.
This is more than a book.
It's a mantled war cry for every woman who's ever cried out in the dark and heard God say,
"Get up. Rebuild from here."
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