Life Sentence (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9780143782179)

"I'm awake again, shaking, sweating. My heart is racing and I stare into the dark. I can't close my eyes. I fear the images - too many to count. They swim behind my eyelids; I am drowning in their terror. Suicides, heart attacks, murders, car crashes. The images come again and again. All the dead people . . . I have to touch their legs, their arms, reach into their pockets, look into their unseeing eyes for clues."

From the moment two police officers walked into his primary school to give a talk, Simon Gillard knew he wanted to be a policeman. It was a dream that stayed with him right through high school, and as soon as he was old enough he applied to join the force. He began as an optimistic young probationary constable with a great sense of humor and passion for the job. But as his career began to build, so too did the number of cases he worked on, from high-profile murder investigations to pedophile rings, suicides to the investigation even of a fellow officer. As the cases mounted, Simon started to suffer panic attacks and to drink heavily. Nights were the most difficult: he would shut his eyes only to be tormented by nightmares about missing young women, and schoolboys not much older than his own son, whose lives had been devastated. He sought help but was encouraged to just "go back to work" and ended up making four attempts on his own life. He was later formally diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and invalided out of the force. In this powerful memoir, Simon reveals the details of the cases he worked on, how the police force operates, and how one man's life can spiral so out of control. He is now working to create awareness about PTSD and has written this book to help other sufferers.

Author: Simon Gillard
ISBN-10: 0143782177
ISBN-13: 9780143782179
Publisher: William Heinemann Australia
Language: English
Published: 08/01/2017
Pages: 304
Format: Paperback
Weight: 0.80lbs
Size: 9.10h x 6.00w x 0.90d