Love Nots: Searching for the Love only God could give (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9780692945629)

The purpose of this book, is to bring empowerment and encouragement to women. I want to use my testimony as a catalyst, to help and give hope, to those who are in despair. I want my story to help single women, and single mothers. I also want to share my experiences, to display the love and glory of God in my life. In order for this to occur, I know that I will have to uncover some of the most painful events of my life. The events and occurrences in my life that has affected me the most.

In this process, and in the unveiling of these events, I would like to convey, how God and his love, brought me out of a dark and horrible pit and delivered me from my circumstances. How I could rise above the turmoil and the ashes and become the woman that God has called me to be. I understand the pain of being rejected all too well, for I have been rejected my entire life. By first and foremost my father. Through the process of writing this book, I was forced to rehash, and remember painful experiences that I had suppressed that resurfaced painful and bitter emotions. This was very therapeutic for me because I was able to really deal with it and allow God to heal me.

As a result of that initial rejection, a seed was planted at a very young age, which in turn made me attracted to men who also rejected me. This cycle went on and on for years. The generational curse of bad and truly awful relationships did its best to diminish the love that I had for myself. I didn't know who I truly was. I didn't know that God loved me or just how much.

I continually found myself in relationships where men demeaned me and used me. I allowed these men to attack my self-esteem. This left me feeling inadequate and unworthy. I believed in my mind, that I was not worthy of anyone's love. I would give more and more of myself trying so desperately to receive the love I was in search of, to fill a void that only Jesus Christ could fill. However, once I began to come into the revelation of God's love, my life tremendously changed. This revelation of unconditional love was the beginning of my foundation.