My Enlightenment Delusion: experiences and musings of a former Transcendental Meditation teacher (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9781520898452)

Matt Landing recounts the ups and downs as a Transcendental Meditation teacher. After a 1990 kundalini crisis, he thought he was enlightened, but he later painfully became aware that it was a grandiose delusion. Matt reflects on kundalini, mania, epileptic religiosity, psychedelic experience, and the experiences of people who claim enlightenment.

Matt provides an entertaining account of his life with a look behind the scenes of the TM organization, advanced training courses, and the TM-Sidhis course. The book also contains a thought-provoking analysis of kundalini, enlightenment, celibacy, gurus, kriyas, speaking in tongues, Pure Awareness, super radiance, and reincarnation.

Matt explains why the similarities between grandiose delusions, psychotic mania, and kundalini crises are more than a coincidence. He provides recommendations for those who are in the midst of a kundalini crisis. Matt explains how spiritual aspirants become ungrounded and offers suggestions on how to become grounded.

He provides evidence against the existence of enlightenment. He looks at some of the unflattering characteristics of gurus and labels them as "guru maniacs".

Beginning in 1972 while reading books in college, Matt acquired a desire to reach enlightenment. He then learned TM, went on numerous TM residence courses, practiced the TM-Sidhis program, ate a predominately raw food diet, fasted, detoxed his body, and used self muscle testing. His spiritual practice took 3 hours per day and included asanas, pranayama, and meditation.

Matt delivers a powerful punch against enlightenment, gurus, spiritual movements, and religions. Matt strikes at the concepts of karma, kundalini, shaktipat, faith, support of nature, devotion to a guru, Pure Awareness, and right action.

Version 2.00 of My Enlightenment Delusion is a 60,000-word book that was completed in December 2017 and contains the original material in Version 1.00 plus 7 additional chapters. Chapter 13 contains a comparison of epileptic religiosity with kundalini crises and mania. Chapter 21 juxtaposes spiritual experiences, psychedelic experiences, mania, near death experiences, and G-force induced loss of consciousness. Chapter 22 discusses Robert Forman's book Enlightenment Ain't All It's Cracked Up To Be and the unrealistic, rosy picture that enlightenment brings an end to all suffering. Chapter 23 is devoted to looking at the disquieting aspects in the lives of Suzanne Segal, Ramana Maharshi, and Gopi Krishna who are all departed but continue to inspire many spiritual seekers. Chapter 24 thoroughly describes the enlightenment experiences of 22 individuals and then offers a critique of their experience. (Version 2.01 has updated internet links as of July 15, 2021.)