Pain Living In My Pen: The untold story of a Street Poet (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9781981809493)

Maurice Wisdom Bishop is 31 years old currently serving in the U.S. Army. This is his story. I deployed in Iraq for 13 months. While I was there a soldier in my unit shot himself with an M-16 and the 5.56mm round hit him in the quadrum of his heart and he died. I felt so much guilt because I was one of the soldiers that made fun of him and I blamed myself. I was very effected and hid my emotions inside. After my 13 month deployment my ex baby mama called me unexpectedly after 6 months of not calling me on Skype nor emailing me and told me my 1year old son died. She never even told me about the funeral. I became angry and my heart grew cold. I had nightmares from my deployment and my dead son and couldn't sleep so I started smoking a lot, drinking a lot of beer, brown liquor and wine just to go to sleep. That night I became an alcoholic. I was a smoker at age 12. I became reckless and violent. Emotionally I couldn't function so the relationships I was in always failed. I was married and ended up in a bad divorce. I didn't communicate with my family because I felt like they couldn't help me and I didn't get along with them. I felt alone and was suicidal many times. I stabbed myself in my leg, tried cutting my chest, and my arm. I even mixed a few percocets in my glassed filled Hennessy. I even became homeless and had to survive in the streets. Because I had a bad reputation of mistreating women, a woman who I use to sleep with sent 3 of her cousins that just came out of jail (attempted murder)to kill me. I was chased and even shot at but I've managed to survive. I've moved out of Philly to Lindenwold, New Jersey trying to start my life over but trouble always found me. I remember telling God to change my life and making me the man he wants me to be. Nothing miraculous happen except I kept reading and studying the bible and I was going to church. I've stop smoking, drinking, fighting, mistreating women, and hating people and never knew it. Im in great relationship with my parents and family. With that being said, my life did a 360 change. God change my life completely. I have a home, a career, I sleep well and I'm free from alcohlism and smoking. I'm a published author of Blood on Paper & Pain Living In My Pen/Poet and I use my story/poetry to change lives.