Still Alive But At What Cost (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9798994506219)

Burke Bryant has run toward disasters in dozens of countries. Pulled people from rubble in Haiti. Watched villages drown in Indonesia. Carried strangers through artillery fire in Ukraine. Received two Presidential Lifetime Achievement Awards for work most people couldn't do for a week.

He couldn't go to his mother's funeral.

Still Alive is the memoir Burke Bryant didn't want to write. For over a decade, he told himself the work was service - and it was. But it was also armor. A way to stay in motion so he never had to sit still long enough to face what the motion was costing him. The relationships he couldn't hold onto. The grief he kept outrunning. The creeping truth that a man who could extract strangers from war zones had no idea how to be present in his own life.

This is not a story about heroism. It's a story about what heroism can hide - and what happens when there are no more disasters to run to and the only thing left is yourself.