This Will Be The Death Of Me (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9781641141277)

This autobiography depicts the author's haunting memories, frustrations of ignorance (darkness) as a child, and the confusion that escorted introverted Rose Rutland into a season of promiscuity as a young woman and an unplanned pregnancy, then ultimately into attempting suicide. It also shows the tricks and tactics of the enemy, how he played and preyed upon her to bring her to that place of hopelessness.

This young Black woman, Rose, struggles to understand what is happening to her amid the ignorance (darkness) that slowly overtakes her throughout her life. Ignorance, ranging from parents' love, sibling rivalry, neglect, guns, men, sex, abortion, abuse, lies, secrets, misunderstandings, dreams, visions, angels, God, and eternity.

Despite it all, Rose pushes toward the unknown.

God wanted this book written to knock on the doors of hearts that are crying out for help, as mine was. Writing this book brought back memories that used to make me cry. Being led of God to write it I cried not for pain of those memories. I wept over the Love God showed through it all. And I laughed at the foolishness of that dead little girl. This book is an answer to someone's cry. May this book increase hope and faith in God, open blind eyes, and set the captives free.