Wars of the Mind Volume 1: Upon the Road of Leaves (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9781412078825)

In early 2001, after a year and a half of lyric writing for a heavy metal band, I began noticing that there were many unanswered demons stirring in my soul and many more emotions that were being pushed aside, and so many things of my past coming back to haunt me. As a singer, I found it easy to express myself and take control of the life I have created. However, months after I stopped the lyric writing, I found that I needed to sort out the rest of the thoughts in my head and escape reality. In late nights and over hard drinks, I found that walking away from writing was far from possible, and poetry was the only thing that could comfort me in the darkness of my own being.

By late 2001, at the age of fifteen and a freshmen in high school, I had begun to write down and document my feelings and past, using a new form of lyric style poetry. A series of rhymes, riddles and rants formed into an assortment of poetic statements. As the years began to pass and the life of a lower middle class social reject began to crush down and began clouding all judgments that I could muster in the haze of my troubled mind, there was only one thing I could turn to: a girl who, at first sight stole my heart but little did I know that it would be almost half a decade before I would regain it. I found after a few months that love and being sober was much harder than smoking and drinking myself numb. I was used to being drugged most of my childhood.