Why Couldn't I (Paperback) (ISBN-13: 9798319387998)

NWB grew up learning that family doesn't always mean love, and survival doesn't always mean living. Abandoned as a child and replaced as a memory, he carried the weight of rejection into adulthood - until the silence broke.

What started as grief turned into something else:
a hidden world of occult rituals, whispered voices, and dark choices.

Through every suicide that couldn't be stopped, every murder that couldn't be undone, and every moment that couldn't be changed - the same question followed him:

Why couldn't I?

But it wasn't all darkness. Somewhere along the way, there was love too - pure, unexpected, and human.
A connection that could have saved him.
But by the time he found it, the darkness had already made its choice.

Now caught between a life he lost, a world he can't trust, and an underground force called The Occultus - NWB walks a thin line between being the victim, the villain, or something worse.